I want to be in all senses of the words, All. Things. Mama.
As far back as I can remember I've wanted to be a mom, not just any mom, but the mom that stays home with her kids full time. The mom who loves even when she is not loved back, who can't breathe without thinking of her kids first. The mom who loves teaching, playing, cooking, baking, laughing, and kissing owies. The mom who is ALL THINGS MAMA. My husband and I scrimp so that dream can be fulfilled. Being a mom is not part time for me. It is something that has captured my heart. All of the going ons of my life start with thoughts of my kids. My kids consume my love and my life and I allow it because, with God's help they are the essence of what makes me a mother. This is me...

kids: the reason for moms

kids: the reason for moms

Monday, December 19, 2011

It's the build up...

The nativity scenes, the music, the lights, the decorations, the shopping, the parties, sometimes the snow, the movies, and of course the food are what make Christmas, Christmas, for me.  It's not the actual day, it's the build up, the excitement for the coming of the actual day that makes me happiest.  I love staring at the tree, listening to Christmas music, thinking of how much fun getting together with family and friends will be.  Thinking of my kids and how much fun they are going to have in the coming days.

It seems as though I need a wake up call this year.  I've been letting life's problems get me down, making this season not as bright.  I've been dwelling on the bad, instead of the good, not trusting that God is putting the pieces together in a perfect and beautiful life puzzle, just like He always has and will.  I need to focus the lens of my life on what I have, not what I want, because what I have is so good, and way more than I need or deserve.

Why do I always drown myself in the sorrows of my problems, forgetting that God has never failed to provide?  When I remember His provisions and everything He does, His peace surrounds me and I feel like myself again.  I am able to celebrate and focus on the good stuff which makes life so much better!

So, here's to getting a better focus and holding onto it for the coming year!  Happiness focused.

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